i am totally

While dusting off old memorabilia I came across my Live Journal! Some realizations I had were: I haven't really changed much, just matured...A LOT. I was a funny kid. I was very emotional. I was interesting to say the least. I still can't spell.
This Live Journal made me realize how much time really has changed me and all the people in my life. I'm sitting here WIGGING OUT at how long ago it was when I would religiously write in this thing.
I am totally freaking out.

I'm a damsal in distress who needs a knight in shinning armor.
I'm a Topanga without a Corey to put his arm around her.
I'm a pirate who wants her buried treasure.
I'm a stormy day that needs sunny weather.
And lately, this is all I think of.
But I still don't wanna fall in love!
And I'm sick of it!
All this love shit!
So if you're the one
Tell me & my worrying will be DONE!
Don't be afraid
Cause we might be
MADE FOR EACH OTHER!

Guitar store boy has a happy face when he sees me.
He notices me & laughs at my jokes.
I think he thinks I'm cute.
That's totally excellent!

Piano teacher is really really super mega cool. My practice pieces, he writes FROM HIS HEAD! He just makes it up, right there, on the spot! And they're GOOD! And he's funni, We're gonna start working on classical pieces next week. 
YAY!

Guitar teacher is so wise. He's very into the blues. Guitar's a challenge for me, but I do like it. My teacher's just wayy into the blues, and I just gotta learn to like it.

Voice teacher is really fun. I've known him for some time. He's really good.

My poop mother's going bankrup with all the lessons!
She says I gotta stay in the top 10 of my class to keep getting lessons.
But I'll do it because
I LOVE MUSIC!

OK, I'll shutup now.
Ta

ON my ceiling
I have reminders to myself, about myself.
So I'll never forget who I am.
Because I have forgotten who I am/was so many times
It's gotten to the point where I don't know who I ever was...EVER
They're the first thing I see in the morning & the last before I go to sleep.
But at night, the darkness plays tricks on my mind and when I was looking at the reminders last night
They started to fade away.
But then I would blink and they would be there again.

That meant something to me. I'm not really sure what, but it meant something.

Then I started thinking. This has nothing to do with the reminders, but it happen in the same night.
I was thinking about my options in life. My decisions. My choices. My mistakes. Past. Present. Future.
I always think I'm totally settled in a decision I make, or an opinion I have, but then something will sway me.
And then I'm changing positions. I never know what I want. I've NEVER known what I wanted. I just know, it's not this.
I know I want more, but more of what I don't know.
I know I want to try all kinds of things I KNOW are wrong,
but at the same time, I know that those things can really mess you up.
And then I know I don't want to try them.
But do I?
Am I willing to take that chance? No. Yes.
Do I want instant gradification, or should I wait and get total & eternal happiness [if there is such a thing?]
Should I believe in God in the hopes that there might be a God,
or am I wasting my time?

OK, I'll shutup now.
Ta

Ok ladies & gents!
I'm back from Canada! It was totally super excellent! Mary & I partied ON!


P.S. I found out the name of the hot guy who works at the place where I get my guitar// (soon to be) piano lessons! me=happy

OK, I'll shutup now.
Ta

OH CANADA!

Niagra Falls '06!!!

I <3 mary matthews!

Can't wait!

OK, I'll shutup now.
Ta

I'm totally stuck in a rut...again!
I feel...well not myself...
I'm totally NOT diggin' this feelin!
Anyone wanna help a girl out???

Ok, I'll shutup now.
Ta

Yeah so, it's a new layout. & yeah. I like it. 

CRAB PARTY '06!
It's finally here
 
YESSSSSSSSSS!

Ok, I'll shut up now.
Ta!

You Are 86% Indie

You're so indie, it's kind of amazing that you actually found your way to this quiz. Generally, your tastes are genuinely indie... but sometimes you like something just because it's weird!

You Are Ernie

Playful and childlike, you are everyone's favorite friend - even if your goofy antics get annoying at times. You are usually feeling: Amused - you are very easily entertained You are famous for: Always making people smile. From your silly songs to your wild pranks, you keep things fun. How you life your life: With ease. Life is only difficult when your friends won't play with you!